I'm beginning to feel like nothing can please me, that I can never please me. Over looking everything I've done and everything I've seen always seems to confirm that. Don't get me wrong, I am happy - in life and love - but still I feel I'm just not enough.

Lately I have been reflecting on all my artworks (if they can be called that) I've done - most of which will never appear on deviant due to my lack of determination as well as laziness - and how little they do to express me and my feelings. To be honest, the "artworks" I have on deviant are horrible and merely there just to fill the gaps of my pitiful gallery. In the not to distant future, I have a feeling they shall all be erased.

Perhaps I just need some positivity, which is something I am so desperately needing and have forever longed for. Hopefully this positivity will come walking in hand-in-hand with confidence, something else I so desperately need. Yes, I do suppose I am whining.

But, on a good point, for Christmas - due to my boyfriend's cunning influence on my mother's spending... I mean Santa - I got a Wacom Tablet which I hope will inspire and help create artworks I will flaunt with pride. Hopefully, that will be the case.

Well, I doubt anybody will read this besides me and spell check but anyway I wish you happiness and smiles YEEEE.


PS this reminds me I must get a move on for my HSC BOW. When I'm finished, I will post it up. Promise